Note: What Will It Be.

Drawing Can't Satisfie My Craving. Niether Can Food Or Meaningless People. I Only Want This One Person. I Only Want What We Use To Have. What I Never Want To Change. But Now This Person Is Switching The Game. I'm Sitting Here Listening To This Song. This Song Which I Didn't Understand The Meaning Of Until My Heart Was Bleeding. Bleeding Out All The Notes A Piano Couldn't Quite Comprehend. But Can Guess It Means The End. Will A Friendship Still Remain Or Will Everything We Had Go Up In Flames. Is It My Duty To Stop It. Or Does This Have To Come To An End To Be A Better Beginning. Will I Like The Outcome Or Will I Just Have Over Come This Feeling Which I Can't Bear To Have Inside. I Want You Body And Soul But I Know I Can't Have My Cake And Eat It Too. But Does It Really Have To Be Two. You Bring People In With Open Arms And Wait To Late To Ask The Others Opinion. You Seem Happy Which Leaves A Person No Space To Voice Their True Opinions. I Cannot Crush What You Have Waited So Long To Have. Causing You More Misery. And I Also. Because You Not Happy Leaves Me Sad. But Me Not Happy Leaves You With An Unknown Problem. So Will I Voice What Can Be The End Between You And Me. Or Will I Just Go On Living A Lie.

I Yearn For You.

The Flutters In My Body
The World Moving Slow
This One Moment
Makes Life Worth While
Makes Going Through The Day An Easy Trial
Memories Of Your Smile Your Laugh
Your Ever So Intoxicating Eyes.
I Yearn For More Time
I Yearn For Just A Hour Minute Second Where Nothing Mattered But What We Had Between You And I.
Your Tongue Your Lips
Your Ever So Sweet Kiss
The Feeling I Won't See You Again
The Loss My Body Takes
My Soul You Are My Heart
The Thing That Aches
I Yearn For More Time
I Yearn For More Months Week Days
I Yearn Just To Be Near You.

What Has Yet To Begun.

A Nice Smooth Cut.
No Space For Regert.
What At A Time Seemed So Selfish Is What I Can Only Think About.
I Plead With My Self. To Finish What Has Yet To Be Started.

dark poems

Death Welcomes
Im freezing inside and the coldness wont go away
i cant stop the shivers and i cant hide
they find me where ever i go and i cannot be alone
for i do not care about daily life
for death welcomes me
and soon i will accept.......

Because you commited suicide
Death is a promise
forever sealed with a sweet kiss of sorrow
pain is no more and your mind can rest peacefully
while your soul goes to hell and everything
in your body burns from the inside out
you scream for help but your the only one around
you run to fund someone but your souls underground
your forever trapped in the depths of death
forever never to be found
cast away by things that haunt you at night
your own face
there's no use in crying or screaming for help
cause the only one that can hear you is
the devil in the firey depths of hell
you now live in the depths of the dead

My Suicide note (try one)
suicide thoughts are for the weak
well your wrong weaklings cower and try to hide
suicide is a from of standing strong
you are strong enough to put yourself out of your own misery
and not standing weeping in the rain ao uncool and screaming Why me
you do it silently so one can come save you
cause you dont wanna be saved
do you?
i think you do
prove me wrong
show me you want it (evil smile)

Depression
depression hits harder then the normal punch
you have no way in blocking the attempt
and no way of knowing when the punch is coming

okay i know this is not a story or poem but really

Okay in Washington dc today feb.3.2010 every time we have snow. the dc public schools always stay open. I'm mean i know it not like 4 inch like last time but to cover the whole street and sidewalk it should be enough for at least a delay. i mean some kids actually walk to school. and yeah i wouldn't mind a free day. 

 But like come on, who the fuck lets kids go out in that. fuck teenagers.  also who wants to mess up such pretty white snow and make it all black and polluted. I'm done ranting for now . i just don't get that.

the two peoms i just shared

the two peoms you will get to read are from my heart and a special. i hope you like them. 

thats all i got to say.

well that was a waste of time dont you think. 

well bye.XD

Sharing

I am not good at sharing

Selfish is what i am 

I want you to myself

So why do you give yourself away

I know i came in second through the door

But do you really care who came first

does it depend on stability or just love 

I don't believe you came from above because

your nothing i thought a angel would be 

but i love you all the same 

So don't hurt me

I won't share you or a least i won't let myself know i am.

My Questions To You

Am I Selfish

because i want you to myself 

Am I Mean

because i don't want you to have anyone else 

Are You Mad

that i cant go along Will You Be There if i tell you that this person doesn't belong Are You True

with your love for me 

Are You Sure

about who you will choose 

I Know Its A lot Of Question To Answer 

But I Have One Thing I Know The Answer To...

Im In Love With You